Author Archives: gretchen

About gretchen

Gretchen lives in San Francisco. She writes about Zen practice and mundane moments on a planet that is increasingly ... hot.

the hidden-lands of como

I was expecting to write about sesshin, a five-day meditation retreat that happened some weeks ago here at City Center.  But I had trouble achieving a useful meta-position from which to write about it, because this sesshin was personally rather … Continue reading

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the effort of continuous practice

The Ino asked if I could cover this morning’s fukudo position, and my response was “of course.”  I had recently trained on the position when I stopped being head chiden for awhile so the role was still fresh in my … Continue reading

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the thing that cannot be undone

It was Thursday night when we found Dave’s body. I say “we,” although to be precise it was not me but some other specific people, and those people will have had a very particular experience of the events from that … Continue reading

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grabbing the gearshift

I chuckled as I sat down on the zafu, because the invitation to sit dokusan with my teacher came at the last minute as it sometimes does, and I had no idea what I wanted to ask him. I decided … Continue reading

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back in the saddle again

Sometimes the universe screws around with you a bit. I am back to being head chiden at the temple again.  In the same weekend I was invited to again be head chiden, my boss’ half-time scheduling support (at my day … Continue reading

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The whole universe invites you …

Saturday was our monthly one-day sitting, required for all residents.  Actually it was a triple whammy Zen day:  a one-day sitting, the middle day of a three-day sesshin (meditation retreat), and the end of the spring practice period.  But I … Continue reading

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Bye bye chiden, goodbye

One of the things that has changed recently is that I am no longer the head chiden. There are many jobs at the Zen Center – house jobs, bathroom jobs, kitchen jobs, dish jobs, staff jobs.  Chidening falls under the … Continue reading

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